Here is a snapshot of my journey. If you want to know more about my credentials, look further down the page.

In my life, I’ve lived many different realities. From a small mountain village in the south of Spain, I embarked on a life-changing journey to live in London at 16 on a scholarship, alone, pursuing my dreams as a professional dancer. I’ve since travelled worldwide as a bodyworker, massaging professional poker players and lived deep in the Ecuadorian rainforest, immersed in the traditions and wisdom of the Kichwa indigenous communities.

As with many people, grief has been a regular companion throughout these journeys. I faced the devastation of the death of my first love, the challenges of leaving my home behind, and the weight of becoming a full-time caregiver for my brother, who battled cancer and disability. There were toxic relationships, severe mental health issues in my family, abuse, enduring financial struggles, and betrayal. A story that is, sadly, not unfamiliar in our world. And yet, at this point in my journey, I can honestly say that grief has been my greatest teacher, my initiator into the deepest love and beauty.

Psychology

From an early age, I had an intense interest in philosophy and psychology, and this passion continues to this day in the study of psychosynthesis and integral transpersonal psychology. This exploration has led me to delve deeper into the human experience and eventually brought me on a spiritual path.

Buddhism

In my late teens, I began my journey through Buddhist meditation by attending my first Goenka Vipassana retreat and falling in love with the practice.

As many of us do, I became obsessed, meditating for 2-3 hours daily and becoming fascinated by the concept of impermanence.

I was in the midst of an unhealthy relationship and lifestyle, and meditation offered me solace and escape. However, I used this practice in an unhealthy way, mistaking indifference for equanimity as I slowly numbed myself in non-attachment.

Over the years, I came to realise this. However, even with many more meditation retreats and diving deeper into the Buddhist teachings, my practice still felt sterile, as if it was disconnecting me from the world.

And then I found Rob Burbea.

Rob is my meditation teacher to this day, and through his teachings, I have found beauty and joy in my meditation practice, helping me to integrate all paths of my life instead of separating them.

Shamanism and plant medicine

Almost ten years ago, shamanism came into my life, and through a series of synchronicities, I met my teacher Kurikindi and began what would become some of the most intense training of my life.

Many people imagine shamanic training as working with strong psychedelic plants. However, my first few years of training were traditional discipline and warrior training integrated with the gentle ways of my teacher.

Only after creating these foundations did I begin my training in plant medicine. The deeper I connected to the plant medicines of Ecuador, the deeper I found myself connecting to the plant medicines of Europe.

Mysticism & tantra

Through the merging of Kurikindi’s and Rob’s teachings, I found myself falling deeply in love with Mysticism.

And the deeper I went into Mysticism, the more I came face to face with my own intimacy issues.

I had developed concentration, presence, inner strength and resilience, yet I was still profoundly judgemental and closed off to other people. I didn’t know how to trust. I didn’t even want to.

I realised I had spent much of my life hiding my true self from others, locked up in a cage of pressure and judgement. And when I saw my female teacher in Ecuador, and she told me that I needed to work on my capacity to love to open my heart, I jumped right in.

This brought me to Neo-Tantra, and later to Tantra.

I soon realised that there was so much to work on. I had closed down my feeling capacity, and my nervous system rejected pleasure. I didn’t feel alive; I felt numb. I had lost my connection to my body. I had lost my ability to play and to feel joy. Life had become a chore.

I had some deep work to do.

I learned to truly be with the shadowiest parts of myself, without judgement, and I learned to come into a deeply loving relationship with all parts of myself. This changed my life. I began to feel joy again. I began to feel pleasure. My relationships transformed; I began to show more of myself, which allowed me to be seen at my full potential, and the more I did this, the more the world around me responded, bringing me into deeper and deeper intimate relationships with every experience in my life.

What brought me to this work

I saw the detrimental effects of society’s obsession with shaming and the unrealistic expectation of being flawlessly perfect. This culture breeds self-criticism, disconnection, bypassing, freeze, and stagnation, which results in so much lost potential.

I have experienced firsthand the consequences of disconnecting from our bodies, pleasure, and the world’s beauty. I understand how crucial these aspects are for nourishing us to face life’s challenges. I believe this is crucial to avoid burnout.

No, my life is not a fairytale. In fact, in the last year, I have gone through some of the most intense family health situations, taking me into a depth of grief I had not known before. And yet, even in these harsh times - I can stay connected to my body, my truth, and joy, feeling resourced and avoiding burnout. I can embrace life’s journey without victimisation, owning my path without sacrificing myself, embracing the highs and lows - I feel fully alive,

My journey has made me incredible at what I do, but more than that, it has allowed me to experience the fullness of human life in all its forms. It has deepened my connection with myself, others, and the world and has taught me to show up fully, unafraid of being seen in my fullness, and I can confidently say that I genuinely love life. And I want this for every person.

I’m still only at the beginning and will continue to learn and grow, but now I’m excited to do so, excited for the journey, whatever it may bring. Life is no longer a chore. It is truly a blessing.